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Post by Kayla Sommers on Jun 25, 2012 16:23:50 GMT -5
 --- i'll be there when you close your eyes ,.[/color][/size][/font] ( HOLD YOU TIGHT, SAY GOODNIGHT )[/center] For some reason, Kayla couldn't sleep tonight. She had laid in bed, tossing and turning and unable to settle. So she had got up, got dressed and went for a midnight walk. Yes it was after curfew but Kayla really didn't care. She didn't care for much anymore. Her life was completely shit and she had nothing or no one that she classed as important in her life. Bottom line was was that she was now unable to trust anyone or allow herself to care about anyone. Her heart had been broken so many times over and over again that it was beyond mending. Alot of people would probably say why not do yourself a favor and finish it all. She had, well tried atleast and came close to nearly ending her miserable life, but she found herself waking up on the hospital wing. As soon as she realised she was still alive she burst in to tears. When Kayla came back to reality she realised she was close to the lake. It was a lovely place to come and think, although she didn't know what she would think about.
Kayla walked to the edge of the lake and looked at her reflection. Any sign of happiness in her past was gone. She hated what she saw. Kayla grimaced at her reflection and sat down, knees to chest and looked up at the starry night. It was pretty clear, only a few small clouds plodded around. The stars twinkled brightly and the moon shone down bright enough to eluminate the place so Kayla didn't need the lumos charm to see. With a sigh she rested back in the grass, her legs still bent up but propping herself up on her elbows. How she wished she could just change her past with a a wand. It seemed unfair that you could do so much with a wand, but you couldn't change the past. "It sucks." Said Kayla to herself, her eyes tingling slightly as small tears threatened to spill from them. She quickly rubbed her eyes. No she wasn't going to cry. It was her fault anyway all this had happened to her, it was her fault that her brother was dead. She had killed him after all and he deserved it. Kayla smiled a little to herself about her brothers dead. Something dark in her was beginning to rise from deep within her. She could feel slowly taking hold of her. She secretly wanted it to.
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Post by Zakaria Hayden Stargazer on Jun 26, 2012 7:18:39 GMT -5
Oh this love is bittersweet,
It's always incomplete, 
Right now you're killing me
'Cause everything that you say,
Zakaria kissed his son Zayden's forehead as he fell asleep...he smiled at him for a long moment...and then tucked him tightly in before leaving him to sleep....he wasn't sure what he would do tonight but he needed to do something...Boredom was a killer to him....He reached the front doors and pushed them open...walking towards the Russvatnet Lake quietly without passing anyone...It was pretty late by now...though he wasn't sure how much later...as he reached the lake he stopped and stared at the girl sitting there by the lake... He could sense the sadness and darkness surrounding her....she looked as if she had either been crying or wanted to...He cleared his throat as he stopped behind her to get her attention... Hello there darling...why do you look so sad tonight? He asked her with his French accent thick.... A pretty girl looking so sad is kinda depressing... He told her as he sat down beside her....He looked her over and couldn't help but sense familiarization by the way she smelled and her features...he knew he somehow...he stared at her trying to place her face.... and every time that you stay, I see that now you have changed
and I'm the one that you blame.
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Post by Kayla Sommers on Jun 30, 2012 6:49:40 GMT -5
 --- i'll be there when you close your eyes ,.[/color][/size][/font] ( HOLD YOU TIGHT, SAY GOODNIGHT )[/center] Maybe if Kayla wasn't so deep in thought she may have heard someone coming, then again the person approaching her was so quiet she probably wouldn't have noticed either way. When he cleared his throat, Kayla jumped a little, making her heart thump against her chest a few beats before settling down to it's usual rhythm. Kayla looked up and over her shoulder and saw a young man standing behind her. He looked so familiar to her that she frowned a little, trying to think where she had seen him, maybe even met, but nothing came to mind. She ignored the feeling and sat up straight, straightening out her long slender legs as he took a seat next to her and spoke. It was then that Kayla realised he had a strong French accent. It was very alluring. Kayla couldn't help but notice there was a slight pull to him, like there was something about him that was.....well attractive. Kayla decided not to think about it too much and just sat next to him, trying to think of an answer to what he had just said. "Maybe I haven't got anything to be happy about." She said with no hint of any kind of emotion on her face.
There had been so many times when she wished she could just be happy, even for one day, an hour even. Just to remember what it felt like. It was getting irritating all this self pity, she was annoyed at herself for feeling sorry for herself. She felt so pathetic. Kayla brushed her hair back over her shoulders, revealing the vampire attack scar on her neck. It look almost as though the vampire who had attacked her had taken a chunk out of her neck. Almost. Kayla looked back to the handsome young man and very very slightly smiled, sort of. "I'm Kayla." She said and offered her hand for him to shake. She may aswell make some friends, it was getting very lonely and boring having no one to talk to. Even if they weren't close friends atleast it would be some form of company.
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Post by Zakaria Hayden Stargazer on Jul 4, 2012 5:14:04 GMT -5
Oh this love is bittersweet,
It's always incomplete,
Right now you're killing me
'Cause everything that you say,
Zakaria watched as she looked him over and the stood to come sit beside him. He didn't move as she did so..he didn't want to. He her in the eyes as she spoke and he frowned slightly, Surely that's not true...your so young and full of life, you must be happy about something. He said with a slightly laugh in his tone. He watched as she moved the hair off one side of her neck revealing a scar that triggered something in him immeadiatly, he looked at the spot for a long moment...remembering everything as he looked at it...he sniffed the air and remember her scent immeadiatly....he bit his lip as she introduced herself, Well hello Kayla, I am Zakaria. He said with a half grin. He shook her hand gently with barely any contact, What brings you out here?and every time that you stay, I see that now you have changed
and I'm the one that you blame.
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Post by Kayla Sommers on Jul 8, 2012 12:22:05 GMT -5
--- i'll be there when you close your eyes ,. [/color][/size][/font] ( HOLD YOU TIGHT, SAY GOODNIGHT )[/center] Kayla secretly admitted to herself that the French accent was very attractive, maybe it was a weakness that she hadn't been aware of until now, or maybe there was a reason why she was attracted to him but she wasn't going to show him that she was. She had had enough boy trouble to last her a lifetime. Maybe she should just become a lesbian. Kayla had told herself that many times, but it wasn't as if she could just flick a switch and decide to be a muff diver. Kayla liked men, always had and always will, but she did seem to pick guys who caused so much trouble for her. Maybe because she always went for bad boys but that was what she liked about them. Unpredictable, rebellious and just dangerous. Just like her, or how she used to be before depression took hold of her. She frowned a little at his comment. Was he laughing at her? Probably, she was usually the joke to everyone. "Happy about something? There may be something, but i have yet to find out what that is." She said more to herself. Kayla was still looking out across the lake. If he wasn't here it would be so easy to drown herself. There would be no one to stop her and since she didn't have any friends here no one would even know she was gone.
When Kayla shook his hand, it felt kind of cold. She didn't really think to much about it though. It was the middle of the night and it wasn't exactly warm either. The goosebumps on her arms and legs proved that it was a little cold tonight. He asked why she was out here tonight. "To kill myself." She thought to herself. If only she could blurt out the truth. With a slight shrug she thought she may aswell tell him half the truth. "I couldn't sleep and I was bored in my dorm room and came for a walk and somehow ended up here." Said Kayla shrugging a little. She still hadn't looked at him since he had made his presence aware to her. "What brings you out here?" She asks now finally looking at Zakaria.
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Post by Zakaria Hayden Stargazer on Jul 16, 2012 22:26:32 GMT -5
Oh this love is bittersweet,
It's always incomplete,
Right now you're killing me
'Cause everything that you say,
Zakaria looked at how sad she seemed to be. It really made him sad to see her like this...he hated to see anyone in such a depressive state. Sure, he was a vampire but the whole myth about vampires being void of all feelings was a load of bullshit. He cared as much as he did when he was human. Your pretty and young. I don't see why anyone as lovely as you would seem so depressed. Why not talk to a friend? Depression is not something to be alone with. He told her with a serious look at her. As she told him her reasoning for being out so late and alone he frowned slightly, naturally not believing her, I was bored too...Guess I'm just looking for some company. I don't have any friends here except my son and Jayden...But my son is fast asleep by now and Jayden has been busy falling in love...so I guess...I'm just looking for something to do...or someone to talk with.and every time that you stay, I see that now you have changed
and I'm the one that you blame ((OOC: Aww they should be friends X) )) |
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Post by Kayla Sommers on Jul 26, 2012 11:02:16 GMT -5
--- i'll be there when you close your eyes ,. [/color][/size][/font] ( HOLD YOU TIGHT, SAY GOODNIGHT )[/center] Kayla flinched a little when he called her pretty. She didn't know why he thought she was pretty and she wasn't to sure why he seemed to care that she was depressed. No one else had ever given a shit about her which is probably why she was as low as she was. I.....don't have......anyone to talk to. Said Kayla. It was hard for her to admit that, but it was the truth. "And don't call me pretty." She said quietly, although it was barely above a whisper. If he was human he probably wouldn't have heard her say that, but unbeknownst to Kayla he was a vampire. Kayla really wanted and needed a friend, she wanted someone she could trust and be there for her, but with her past it was hard for her to let anyone in. She hated that part of herself maybe, just maybe Zakariah and Kayla could be friends.
At the mention of his son, Kayla frowned and looked around to Zakaria. He didn't look old enough to have a son. "You have a son?" Said Kayla still looking at him as if she found it hard to believe, although she did. Looking at Zakaria he had that bad boy look, but that wasn't the impression she was getting from him. However she couldn't be sure what he was really like, first impressions aren't usually what people are like all the time. "Yeah I've heard rumors about Jayden and a professor getting pretty close. I don't know what the big deal is, he's entitled to a romantic life." Said Kayla shrugging.
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Post by Zakaria Hayden Stargazer on Jul 27, 2012 11:15:05 GMT -5
Oh this love is bittersweet,
It's always incomplete,
Right now you're killing me
'Cause everything that you say,
Zakaria felt bad for Kayla...she told him of how she had no one to talk to and that made him sigh slightly....he could understand what she meant by having no one...most of his life he had no one at all...he had been beaten and tossed away by his own father...tortured and abused by his aunts....living in the woods during the summer at school to avoid going back to them...avoiding being beaten...he had gotten in so many fights at Hogwarts that he almost could count...beside his dragon as a boy...he had no one at all....now he had Shay...or at least he hoped she would be his soon and his son Zayden...was Zayden....but he knew where she was coming from, We all need friends...and someone to talk to...I hate seeing someone like this...because I was once just like you are now...depressed and alone... He said truthfully, And you are pretty...so why not say it? I'm not hitting on you by any means...I'm just stating a fact that you should know about yourself. He said with a serious look into her eyes. It's not really a big deal..I think...but I could be wrong. Or maybe I'm just biased because I have...well...fallen for a student here and as gamekeeper that is far from being considered wrong I suppose...I just think, people should let other's live...you know? he asked with a smirk, I l know I should fall for a student...but hey, it's not like I asked my emotions to take me there right? I can't help that... He shrugged. and every time that you stay, I see that now you have changed
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Post by Kayla Sommers on Jul 28, 2012 11:44:33 GMT -5
--- i'll be there when you close your eyes ,. [/color][/size][/font] ( HOLD YOU TIGHT, SAY GOODNIGHT )[/center] Kayla pulled her knees to her chest and rest her head down on her knees. She was exhausted and she was getting that feeling again. The feeling she got before her body shut down for a few seconds or minutes. Also known as a micro nap. She really hated sleeping and she did everything she could to avoid it. Don't fall asleep, don't fall asleep."
[/color] She kept on mentally saying to herself. As her arms were hugged around her waist she pinched her arm, hard to wake herself up. She did it on the opposite side Zak was sitting on so he wouldn't see and think she was weird, although that boat had probably pretty much sailed. Feeling the sharp burning pain run up her arm she sat up and looked at Zak as he spoke. "Just don't call me pretty......please."[/color] She said quietly but seriously. She didn't see the point arguing with him that she wasn't as he seemed determined to prove to her that she was. Kayla hadn't thought of herself as pretty in a very long time, it was something she had now accepted. Zak then began to speak about him falling for a student. Kayla wasn't surprised. She had actually been in the same situation. She had ended up with a school member of staff. But he left her, making her realise that yet again she wasn't good enough for anyone. "I don't really care who dates who. If you find someone that makes you happy then your not going to let them go right? or atleast that's what I've heard."[/color] Said Kayla, still no emotion showing on her face. Kayla frowned again as the feeling came over that she had met Zak somewhere before. His eyes were so familiar. She would have thought that maybe his name would have jogged her memory but no, it hadn't. "I get the feeling we've met somewhere before. Have we? You seem pretty familiar to me."[/color] Said Kayla still frowning a little, trying to work it out. [/blockquote][/blockquote][/size][/font] |
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Post by Zakaria Hayden Stargazer on Aug 1, 2012 4:03:36 GMT -5
Oh this love is bittersweet,
It's always incomplete,
Right now you're killing me
'Cause everything that you say,
Zakaria kinda wondered if she was having trouble staying awake...He watched her mutter to herself silently...but decided not to embarrass her by questioning her about it... He frowned slightly, If it makes you feel better..I won't. He said with a polite nod in her direction... He listened to her comment on how she views other's relationships and sighed, Some do say that don't they? I still haven't figured out whether I believe them or not...because I've never felt this way before...I think that my heart is safe with her....and I know her's is safe with mine...but you don't really know do you? I have a feeling your not so sure about that are you? He said wondering slightly why she sounded so against the topic... He smiled at her as she stared at him and looked into his eyes....Her words rang in his ears, I don't believe we've ever met....I don't think so. He lied to her... it wasn't like she would take the truth well right? He stared at her for a long moment... and every time that you stay, I see that now you have changed
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Post by Kayla Sommers on Aug 4, 2012 8:05:29 GMT -5
--- i'll be there when you close your eyes ,. [/color][/size][/font] ( HOLD YOU TIGHT, SAY GOODNIGHT )[/center] Kayla nodded when Zak said he wouldn't call her pretty anymore. That was good. It made her feel uncomfortable, mostly because she didn't believe she was and also because she wasn't used to compliments. At Hogwarts she was just called a whore or a slut, so for someone to say she was pretty was just odd to her. "Thank you."
[/color] She said, turning away from him and looking out across the lake. What were her views on love and relationships. To be honest she had never had one. The closest thing she had had to a relationship was a fuck buddy and even then that sucked because he treated her like shit. Kayla shrugged when he finished talking. "I've never been in a relationship. No actually I've never meant enough to anyone to be in a relationship. I've kinda come to terms with the fact that I ain't good enough for anyone."[/color] Blurted Kayla. She frowned at herself for just suddenly opening up to a complete stranger. Well she wasn't going to say any more. Kayla bit her lip and looked down, ok time for a new topic change. He didn't think they had met? Kayla couldn't tell if he was telling the truth or lieing. She wasn't bothered though. Kayla raised an eye brow at him as he seemed to stare at her for a long time. "What?"[/color] She asked, feeling a little uncomfortable. [/blockquote][/blockquote][/size][/font] |
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Post by Zakaria Hayden Stargazer on Aug 6, 2012 6:21:14 GMT -5
Oh this love is bittersweet,
It's always incomplete,
Right now you're killing me
'Cause everything that you say,
Zakaria stared into the lake as she exposed her true feeling on relationships...it was kinda sad that she had never felt love of a man or been someone's special love...for her to never have been in a relationship surprised him...She was pretty whether she tried to keep him from voicing his opinion or not it didn't matter, it was truth. He frowned slightly, Really your still young so don't be in such a worry that you haven't experienced relationships yet...it'll happen when it's time to for you. I promise you. He told her, not meaning to sound like a parent of a professor but with pure honesty of another living well not quite living soul. In reality love and lust were uncontrollable urges that could happen at any time....it was truth in what he said, there was no reason to rush it, The right guy will find you...I promise. He said with a friendly smile. As she raised her eyebrow and asked him what he shrugged slightly and smiled, Sorry I was lost in thought for a moment. He said looking back to the lake and not in her eyes...would she recognize them...if they continued to look into each other's eyes? He wasn't sure....but he wouldn't risk it... and every time that you stay, I see that now you have changed
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Post by Kayla Sommers on Aug 12, 2012 15:39:42 GMT -5
--- i'll be there when you close your eyes ,. [/color][/size][/font] ( HOLD YOU TIGHT, SAY GOODNIGHT )[/center] Zakariah seemed so sure that she would find someone. Maybe if she had had some form of happiness or had been able to trust someone she would believe him. She wasn't going to tell him she thought he was wrong. He was trying to help, and that was more than what anyone had done for her in a very long time. She had been lonely for so long and it felt odd sitting next to someone, talking. His words brought tears to her eyes as she remembered fallen for someone which seemed so long ago. She swore she would never let anyone get close enough to hurt her again the way he did and so far she had held up her word. Keeping the whole world at arms length, but it came with a price. Being alone with your thoughts was kind of scary, it could drive a person insane. Well what Kayla was thinking about it probably could. She just glanced at him as he made a promise. "You promise? but how can you be so sure?"
[/color] She asked curiously. The way he spoke it was as if he already knew she was going to find someone. When she spoke, it seemed to bring him back to reality. He gave her a smile and broke eye contact. Maybe they had met in the past, and he was covering. Why, she probably would never know, but the feeling that she knew him still wouldn't go away. It was annoying the crap out of her and she really wanted to know why she felt like that, but Zak had said they had never met. Maybe they knew each other in a past life. "Are you sure we've never met?[/color] Asked Kayla one last time. [/blockquote][/blockquote][/size][/font] |
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Post by Zakaria Hayden Stargazer on Aug 14, 2012 22:34:27 GMT -5
Oh this love is bittersweet,
It's always incomplete,
Right now you're killing me
'Cause everything that you say,
Zakaria smiled her as she asked him why he was so sure she would find someone. He looked into her eyes for a long moment...he couldn't help but think about his brother and his stepfather... no matter how much he hated the man, his stepfather had taught him in his youth something valuable, regardless of the way he later threw him in the dirt, he was taught in fate and the gods...something his brother lived by daily...so of course it rubbed off on him. I was taught to believe in fate...every single one of us is fated to be something and with someone...whether you realize it or not.He frowned slightly as she asked the question again, I don't know...do you? He asked curiously...wondering if she recognized him after all.. and every time that you stay, I see that now you have changed
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Post by Kayla Sommers on Aug 19, 2012 6:31:11 GMT -5
Kayla listened to Zakaria speak. He made a fair point, but it was just so hard for her to believe she was going to end up with anyone. Who would want someone where her parents didn't even care about her. They had turned their back on her long ago, when she told them her brother was beating her, but they didn't believe her and kicked her out. That was the last time she had seen or heard from them. To them, Kayla was dead and Kayla thought she may aswell be. "Well if I do find someone I'll buy you a drink." [/color] Said Kayla with the very slightest hint of a smirk. That was the closest she was going to get to smiling. Kayla thought as he asked the question. She felt like she did, but just couldn't find the answer. "I'm sure I'll remember eventually."[/color] She said with a slight shrug. "So, how long you and this student been together?"[/color] Asked Kayla, moving the subject off of her.[/blockquote] |
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